This web site has saved my life. Thank you so much to all the authors of these horror stories. You have saved me from spending yet another decade in AA. Thank God I'm not bitter, as I'm so relieved to be out of the cult. Two decades of my life have been wasted in "recovery". I believe I was more intelligent when I first went to AA than I was when I left 20 years later.
From the beginning I could see that most members were in deep pain behind the smokescreen of "gratitude". I certainly had a drink problem as I had been using alcohol and drugs to medicate the underlying depression. There was a tremendous amount of sadness in my life, which had been there since childhood. Back in 1985 though, the national health service in England didn't have much to offer in the way of therapy. AA was somewhere for me to go and if the deal was not drinking then I was prepared to pay the price.
Isolation, poverty and chronic depression were my real problems and I knew it. I just wanted to find out if I was an alcoholic. (I know now that I can control my drinking and it isn't a problem for me.) Those damn rooms almost killed me. I was warned against taking medication ("eating your booze")and the depression got worse.
Before I joined AA, despite the pain in my life, not once did I contemplate suicide. When I stopped drinking though it became an option as "sobriety" was unbearable. It was the cult of AA that was really unbearable but I didn't have the confidence to believe my own perception. Despite my resistance I became fully indoctrinated.
20 years later I realize I was a cult member and didn't know it. I've wasted 2 decades of my life, which should have been the prime of my life, in the disgustingly unhealthy environment of AA.
I'm now in my 50s and battle scarred but happier than I've ever been, thanks to More Revealed and Agent Orange. For me, AA is a very dangerous cult and responsible for the deaths and breakdowns of some of my dearest friends. AA is the most evil organisation I've encountered. Power hungry people recruiting for the devil, and they don't even know it.
Satan isn't called the "father of lies" for nothing! Thank the Lord I'm free and thank you for the opportunity to contribute.